Everyone deals with grief differently. My methods of getting through it are pretty generic though. I get quiet, reclusive, introspective. I often times feel like an empty shell holding nothing but the fragments of my thoughts which, horribly enough, spin around in a whirlwind of emotions ( Read more... )

you know, I really hate my school and its administraters. they are all fucking clueless puppets. how did mcr put it? another cog in the murder machine? sometimes I think their main goal is to suck the individuality and resistance out of us.

school staff: ensuring america's tyrannical future by making the masses submissive and uneducated.

Okay, first things first, this is for the benefit of tigergirl90 and Cat...whatever her username is. I forget. ( my classes for term one! )

I've just realized something ( Read more... )

*deep breath in attempt to calm self* So the organization of people that stabbed my mother in the back, fired her and destroyed the community festival that she ran for eighteen years. Yeah, they just made their last mistake. They demanded a letter of resignation from my old coworker who is six months pregnant. Not only have they screwed my family ( Read more... )

Although I’ve been lurking the past few days, I assure you I have been present. I just needed some time to sort things out. I’m coming to terms with a lot of things and finding myself constantly tugged back and forth between extremes. After a lot of crying and screaming and lying about being just fine I think I’ve about resigned myself to the fact ( Read more... )

I finished writing it. It's done. There is no more. I mean, I'm updating the deleted scenes file and there are three more chapters before you guys actually read the end, but otherwise it is el finito. It ended in a way that was different than I expected it to but I'm satisfied with it. I guess that just shows how much the fic itself owned me. Like ( Read more... )

So I'm taking what they call a "mental health day" apparently. I've had a really shitty morning. It's been pretty disgusting too so I'll have to go into detail in a cut. For those of you a bit more sensitive here's what happened: [insert non-specific angst here].

( Totally gross, more specific angst. )

I don't really want to explain again why I feel shitty and haven't been around so I'm just linking ya'll to the explanation I gave to my fan fic comm: http://community.livejournal.com/rvb_slash/117251.html?#cutid1

Okay, I now have a sad icon. Tex made it for me. It makes sense because I'm Simmons. Now I can be properly emo with no hesitation ( Read more... )